Well I went to Alabang today for another job interview, though I already have an offer from People Support. Makati is to far kasi. Talo ko xmpre byahe araw araw un.. so I tried sa Alabang. Yesterday I was also there for the first screening and unexpectedly I met Ish’s cousin Xavier, he’s one of the interviewers tas sakin pa npatapat, but we found after I passed the interview na, he gave me a slip kc and an endorsement letter for a Banking company, then un nga natanong ko.. more on that, I didnt pass the 4th interview kanina..Anyways, after that I went straight home. pagod. then konting panhinga tas, I watched The Promise.wala akong maramdaman, Gusto kong masaktan, I dont understand if their love was fulfilled. palagay ko it failed. walang kwenta un movie.. Wala namn kc kong love life e, at di na magkakaron pa. Akala ko maganda pinanood ko nman.. ewan dko alm kng ngging bitter lng ako..whatever..
Anyways… I want to be mad, pero wala na rin akong lakas pa to fight. ANG SAMA NG LOOB KO KAY LESLIE. He told a gay friend about my pregnancy i duno sabi nya di daw nya sinabi, pero dona txtd me about it na un nga. then Kumalat na. People started talking about it. Even sina Jomel, from highschool. Sympre dikit dikit na yan. They were saying that its KARMA, it hurts. Cuz kht kelan that thought never crossed my mind, na karma un magiging anak ko. Parang i wanted to say something but, wala na akong maireact. I am TRYING MY VERY BEST para maging ok at positive and then ul hear these things from people na malapit saken. Hindi nila alam kng ano pingdadaanan ko pero they judge me like they know me so well. Masakit, and i dnt even have a shoulder to cry on, aside from ish. e si ish shes going back to skul this june. dko na rin xa mxadong mkakasama.
well ngaun d na ko mxadong nsasaktan unlike kanina wen i first heard of the news. initial reaction lang siguro. bahala na si Lord sa kanila. Ako mahal ko un magiging anak ko, and even though nagkamali ako sa mga nangyare, i want to fix things. and siguro nga the least that i have to thInk about is WHAT OTHER PEOPLE WILL SAY. aside from the fact that its not gnah help me, I shouldnt LET IT GET ME. like wat mareng Caroline said. I SHOULD EXPECT THE WORST, ITS ALL PART OF IT. these are the things na kelangan ko pa palang tanggapin… AMEN. may God bless these people….bow!