I posted a lot here but I can’t remember which post made sense I mean at all. Im currently suffering from the setbacks which if wasn’t for FUN I thought, I never did. Most people will just say that WHAT’S DONE IS DONE and we should just learn from them. But im afraid that wont apply for the moment. Im having a hardtime picking those stuffs that i SHOULD learn as i walk through where ive been. I keep on messing up and i cant freakn figure out why. It feels like if I want to get ot of this i have to START FROM SCRATCH and Im quite sure I am not ready to throw all the trash (which I knew they were all garbage) just because I lived wih those, became my comfy zone blah blah. Most of the time I sucked for breaks thinking after that everything’s gonna change and things will be alright. But even my college retreat didn’t held it for long. I keep making the same mistakes and messing up all over again. Tomrw’s April FOOL’S day, haha.. iono I just remembered. I want to start again. (currently what Im thinking) The thing is, I dont know where. Look. I failed a subject this semester I AM NOT GRADUATING til the next. I dated a bunch of JERKS and still dating. I WASTED a lot of money and still wasting. Now tell me where the hell do I have to start? Typing it all down here makes me wish that I’ll get a good answer soon since LIFE IS NOT MY FIELD OF EXPERTISE. I watched the movie VIEW FROM THE TOP (Gwyneth Paltrow), made me remember what I used to dream of, and Im afraid i wasnt aware that Im dragging myself away from my dreams. Maybe its really true that YOU ARE YOUR WORST ENEMY and I am keep defeating myself for a long time. Forgot what Ive read from books of confidence& dreams I used to read. I totally made my way out of what I want to become. IM ACCEPTING THINGS now. because Im moving forward. Back to the path that I used to walk on. Even if no one replied on this, I swear Im doing this for myself. Maybe I didn’t failed too much at all. I can still walk, and slowly I wish to se myself as a better person maybe times from now. Of course its not gonna be ovenight. It would take a lot of DISCIPLINE & DETERMINATION to finally get there. I will take a step at a time. So PLEASE HELP ME GOD.
NOW I KNOW THIS MADE SENSE.